Moving on...

Writing this book was both the hardest and the most liberating thing I've done in a long time. I love to write. I've loved writing since I could write words and make sentences. Writing fiction is like a "getaway vacation" for me. Writing non-fiction, this non-fiction was, many times, like enduring abdominal surgery without anesthetic. Opening up my life, my most inner pain and struggle since that February in 2008, required reliving it, feeling it, over and over. Paul shared with me that he went through this, too, as he wrote his pages and then in all the rewrites and re-reading. Add to that the discovery of so much more in the officer reports, transcripts and watching literally hours of interrogation videos was both gratifying and the stuff of nightmares. You get the picture.

When we were done and the last 'enter' was made to publish both the printed and e-book versions, I felt myself really relax. For the next few weeks, I couldn't get enough sleep! It dawned on me that I hadn't relaxed since we started this project two years ago at least, maybe longer than that. Suddenly, there were days when I didn't think about Paul's kidnapping or its aftermath except in relation to the book. I could talk about it and not cry. For me, that's huge. I'm finally able to step away from those emotions. I'm finally moving on.

"Walking Between The Raindrops" by Mary and Paul Roland is available in print and e-book on Amazon.com. Thank you for buying the book and thank you for your support!